Judgment day

hey, a quick thought. I was listening to Casting crowns "stain glass masquerade" when a question popped into my head. "who is the first to judge". I was thinking about the song and how it's talking about how everyone wears a mask to be more excepted. I then thought about when is the time people start wearing masks. When do people start caring about what people think. In kindergarden and first grade it doesn't seem to matter. then second and third I remember getting more self conscious. I'm pretty sure people start pretending around fourth grade. It's sad it's so young that were taught to "fit in". Would an ultimate universe be one with no judgment. What if everyone lived in peace were you could do anything you wanted without having thoughts from others about you. Would that then get rid of a moral code. isn't a moral code based on what you JUDGE as good and bad. Instead of creating a utopia, it would distort the very world we live in. Or would we figure a way to work with it. Maybe it's hard for us to imagine because it's all we lived with. You've been judged from people from the day you were born. "your baby is beautiful" or "what misbehaved baby". You've been judged and have judged others from what I personally assume is early elementary school. The mere act of judging is what probably made yours and mine Jr. High, and High school years so horrible. well, I thought I might but this thought out there. What do you think?

It's better to be loved and lost then to never have loved at all, or is it?

I previously posted a post about this same topic but due to some technological complications I accedently deleted it. That post at the end ended up agreeing with that phrase. But, I've been thinking lately and I don't agree anymore with my previous thoughts. I know that this famous quote by Alfred Lord Tennyson, from his poem "In Memoriam". is well famous and taken as fact and I personally have only experienced love and then loss of that love once and am still measurable to this day. I don't dwell on it, but I don't feel I'm better coming out of this experience then I was going in to it. Just writing this makes my stomach turn. Though the love I had was lost, I haven't stopped loving. I still love her. Though what might be making it more difficult is that were still friends. maybe it's like getting a knife stuck in your heart and letting the heart heal around the knife instead of removing the knife. but, I want to keep the knife in there. I've gotten use to the knife in my life even if I stopped feeling it for a while. I'm starting to feel the knife again and it herts, but I so desperately want to keep the knife in there. and by saying that, mean I haven't really been communicating with her since I got rejected after I told her. but, now we are, and I think we will, and I want to because I still love her but I don't know if it's good for me. any way to sum it all up I personally don't think it's better to love and lost then to have never have loved at all.

The One

wow two in one night, that's a record anyway, as I was finishing up my last one I was looking at my blog and I was thinking about a post I put on face book, about counting down the days till college and how once I'm there I want to meet my soul mate. My parents met in college and I have always loved those kinds of romances. I know it's unlikely, but sometimes I like to hope. I was watching "500 days of summer" the movie, which is actually a movie I dislike greatly, only because of the ending, anyway I was mainly concentrating on the actually happy and positive parts in their relationship, and I loved that. I liked when they went to "IKEA" and played house in all the different set-ups in the store, like the kitchen and the living room. Oh, and I loved the part were the guy has just fallen in love and it turns into the big musical number to the song "You make my dreams come true" and everyone gets involved and it's happy and unrealistically wonderful. I love that, I want that in a relationship. someone commented on the post on Facebook and said that me wanting to find my soul mate was cute, which I get that, but I didn't do it to be cute, I did cause it's true. when someone says cute, well, cute is what you say to a five year old when they say they want to be president, or a princess. I don't know that just how I see it. so I hope theirs "the one" out there for me, and maybe she will be on campus or maybe I'll meet her when I'm forty.

-Thank you for reading Something Jason

Long Time Since ...

I think it would be cool to write a book, or a TV show, or a movie, like the screenplay, and then direct the movie. I have an I sea for a TV show, and I wrote the Bible for the Tv show, but when I tried to write the Pilot episode I fell flat. I didn't know how my characters talked, what they sounded like, how good their vocabulary was. I wan't to try again but I don't know, I already have the bible I'll write the pilot latter. I had idea for a movie, and the Idea is about my life. Tonight we had a celebration for me going off to college and on the way home I was asking about my birth. for example the day of the birth it was like to hold your baby as you were caring him down to the ICU. I asked about the nurses that helped, and I asked about what my older siblings were going through or more like, what they were thinking and how they reacted to the birth. my mom and dad where telling me how my older brother was so excited about sharing a room with his little brother, and how blissfully unaware how sick I was, but he was only four. My older sisters were more aware about what was going on, them being eight and nine. My oldest sister has always been wise beyond her years. I always said that she acted forty when she was only just starting college. anyway I have always wanted to ask her, her being the most aware of the situations at hand at the time, what she was thinking when she found out about me, and what she was feeling the day she met her baby brother for the first and probably last time, as far as she knew. I was more curious about her reaction because she was the most aware. even though she was only nine at the time, knowing her she was probably acting about thirteen. the younger of my two older sister often tells me how after she met me at the hospital she went back to school wearing the mask, and playing it off like she forgot that it was on the whole time cause she wanted to show her awesome mask off to her other class mates. that still brings me a smile. well, it's getting late, I better get going.

-Thanks for reading Something Jason

What has Glee done

hello followers,

I know I havent posted since the new year, Happy 2011, but I just had an interesting realization. For those wo watch "glee", you see that they do episodes focusing on different artists, why in the last season they did episodes focusing on Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber. Now notice that after they had made their mark on this popular TV show, their carer's have been forcefully draged out of the spot light by their hair. You don't see them on magazine covers or talked about in the schools. They have also been replaced by some other artists such as Katy Perry and (unfortunately) Rebecca Black, an added plus to her parents four thousand dollar gift. so will others realize this fact? do you think it is a fact at all? could Glee just be catching the artists before their eminent down fall? or do they bring upon themselves? You decide.