Growing Up or more the absence of Growing Up

All my life I never really felt grown up. Here I am going in to my senior year of high school and I've never felt grown up. It was like I was playing dress up when I was eight, though instead of being a firefighter or a Doctor I'd be a 6th grader then an 8th grader, and so on, but no matter what I wore, I was still just an eight year old in a costume. I've always felt people talked down to me, some times more blunt and other times not so noticeable, like a ten year old being told that their parents are getting a divorce. The parent is trying to get the child to understand and approaching it as if they were talking to someone of an older age, hoping they would handle it in the way of someone of an older age, though no matter how it was approached they were still just a child. I was born with a condition called hypo-plastic left heart syndrome. This condition caused me to be in and out of the hospital a fair amount for the fist four years of my life. This effected me in a way that would cause difficulties in my latter life. Because I was in the hospital for those three years I was not developing certain social cues and tendencies that other toddlers did. this in the end caused me to be less mature then most of my class mates on a social level and now makes it difficult to socialize with people my age or slightly older.