As of late, I've been listening to the song "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None the Richer on what seems like an endless loop. I LOVE LOVE. I'm such a hopeless romantic. I watch TV and would die for that best friend relationship with some girl I've known for years and end up marrying her and living happily ever after, in a more realistic way. Yet, I'm 19, single and have been that way for 19 years. I've had lost loves. One's that just haven't loved me back, and I guess they weren't right, and I'm totally ok with that. The only thing bothering me is that I look around the campus, and I'm alway's seeing couples, holding hands, EVERYWHERE. I want that so bad. I'm a not so talented writer, not great and developing characters on the page, but I love to write these relationships about best friends that end up falling in love. I also love all the old sit-coms wit relationships like, Kevin and Winnie, Cory and Topanga, Jim and Pam, ect. All I want is love, someone to love and love back. I want that relationship like on the TV screen, I want the best friend that I marry. I know it's a lot to ask, but I'm guessing I'm not the only one, maybe the only guy. What I really love, my favorite moment in any best friend, true love relationship is the kiss, you know what I'm talking about. It's the first kiss, the moment when they realize they were meant for each other, It's when those years of friendship turn into something more. I want that kiss. I'm 19 and still never had a real kiss. I now realize I'm just complaining and ranting, and I know God's time is alway's right, but waiting is exhausting. I'm a point where I'm ready for the fireworks. I could ignore all the happy couples in Jr. High and High School, but college is different. I'm older and more mature. I love the idea of the happiness a relationship brings you.It's late and I have to wake up early, sort of. well, goodnight readers.
